this is so not growing up but who cares...well least not meshawna mae has lost her zest for life...me? mayb. shawna mae does not like bio class which she use to like...and me? well, in the first place, i dun like bio. not tt i dun like just tt i dun like physics more and bio's not as bad but never had the best passsion for it. ART- passion for it seriousness not fit! looking blurly outa window i begin to think again, my purpose remains tho. the world out there can't hold me as i'll slip away in the darkest nights when no one bothers to care bout me. and disappear into the woods never to come back alive...becos u tell me how can i survive out there? can't suvive like ahma. sigh...depression. i bet she ignored me again. i really dun get this ignoring thing! why can't somebody stop ignoring me like pei pei. she doesn't ignore my calls for help nor my irritable side of me. but then ppl do. my best frens dun but some older ones that i like will...mayb cos i'm really dying in the world out there...too childish...too weak...not the one...i shall understand as tears fall from my fountain of hurt and dread. i'm this way...nice this way...GOD made me this way...accept it cos i'm this way....
a chirp from a bird means nothing more than a thought
